Black and Blue

Bored. Disappointed. Frustrated. Stressed. Pressured. Bummed out. Exhausted. Restless. Depressed. Confused.

These are just some of the feelings I keep going through over and over again. It's pretty tiring, mind you. And that's already an understatement.

Early this morning, we had a meeting. Our manager told us that she's not gonna remove anybody from the group until the end of the year, with or without a sale. Nobody reacted. It was supposed to be a good news and she was expecting some cheers. But nobody did. Everyone just stared until she pointed that out.

Personally, I don't know if that's a good news. I was planning to resign after my third month. But then again, that would look really bad on my resume. I confused. I honestly don't know what to do anymore.

I hope I could see some "light" in my life right now. I'm losing my direction--if I had any to begin with, that is. I don't want to believe that my life turning blank and becoming pointless, but sadly, I'm starting to. If this is a black hole, I need to find a way out... now!